IKAIKA = strength .
GUH. pretty glad God let me make it through another day. (thanks!) as hard as it was, i knw there's a lot of people going through shit ten times- thousand times worse than what i am. ended up having to go to work & school #storyofmylife. but the day kinda went by fast. maybe the emotional panic attack i had in the bathroom at work made the time fly. lol i'm pathetic sometimes. i figured out today (like, really really figured out) that i have personal issues that i need to either, overcome or.. suck it up. (if there's even a difference btwn the two). i really wana overcome them, but i knw it's gona take time. some people really believe you can't change in a week or days. i strongly disagree. change comes from within & if you are willing to keep someone/thing in your life & you feel it's worth that change, then.. why not? like i (think) said before, i'm definitely a go-getter. if i want something, i work for it. i go get it. because i knw that tomorrow isn't promised. why take the chance of losing something you think is worth working & changing for? mhm.
on a lighter note. valentine's day is around the corner. i did something pretty corny for heart throb already lol. wrote him a letter to school & asked him to be my valentine. i honestly, hate valentine's day with a passion. ESP when you don't have a "bf\gf" --it's the most over-rated day of the year.. but i think it'll be funny (cute in a way too) to see how HT reacts. if he wants to live, he'll say yes. HA! but really, i love that kid. he's defffinitely one of a kind but the same as every other male specie at the same time. but the one of a kind part sticks out of course overall. he's not my "boyfriend" but we definitely have a building relationship that gets stronger day by day. we see eye to eye but not with everything. actually, we're kinda totally opposite. but didn't Mister Hov himself say "opposites attract like mag-a-nets" --one day i'll bun him up; watch lol.
anyways, damn. i was looking through some old pictures on my dad's computer. LOL & a picture from a reunion in '90 came up. --i have to say, my dad was a studd back in the day. he seriously reminds me (my personal all time fave) of an early aged-ghost, slash-dirty dancing, Patrick Swayze. maybe not so much in this pic,
but yeah, the chinky green eyes, studdly face lol, yup. definitely. if only i had a picture of his navy i.d aha-- oh, & by the way. that's not mum turricka in the black. she's the beaut in the pink! aha looking pretty damn good for having a kid in '89. ha. anyways..
damn, i don't have anything to really talk about. give me some time to still warm up with whole blogging scene & i'll be more entertaining :) promise!
ciaaoo <3
GUH. pretty glad God let me make it through another day. (thanks!) as hard as it was, i knw there's a lot of people going through shit ten times- thousand times worse than what i am. ended up having to go to work & school #storyofmylife. but the day kinda went by fast. maybe the emotional panic attack i had in the bathroom at work made the time fly. lol i'm pathetic sometimes. i figured out today (like, really really figured out) that i have personal issues that i need to either, overcome or.. suck it up. (if there's even a difference btwn the two). i really wana overcome them, but i knw it's gona take time. some people really believe you can't change in a week or days. i strongly disagree. change comes from within & if you are willing to keep someone/thing in your life & you feel it's worth that change, then.. why not? like i (think) said before, i'm definitely a go-getter. if i want something, i work for it. i go get it. because i knw that tomorrow isn't promised. why take the chance of losing something you think is worth working & changing for? mhm.
on a lighter note. valentine's day is around the corner. i did something pretty corny for heart throb already lol. wrote him a letter to school & asked him to be my valentine. i honestly, hate valentine's day with a passion. ESP when you don't have a "bf\gf" --it's the most over-rated day of the year.. but i think it'll be funny (cute in a way too) to see how HT reacts. if he wants to live, he'll say yes. HA! but really, i love that kid. he's defffinitely one of a kind but the same as every other male specie at the same time. but the one of a kind part sticks out of course overall. he's not my "boyfriend" but we definitely have a building relationship that gets stronger day by day. we see eye to eye but not with everything. actually, we're kinda totally opposite. but didn't Mister Hov himself say "opposites attract like mag-a-nets" --one day i'll bun him up; watch lol.
anyways, damn. i was looking through some old pictures on my dad's computer. LOL & a picture from a reunion in '90 came up. --i have to say, my dad was a studd back in the day. he seriously reminds me (my personal all time fave) of an early aged-ghost, slash-dirty dancing, Patrick Swayze. maybe not so much in this pic,
but yeah, the chinky green eyes, studdly face lol, yup. definitely. if only i had a picture of his navy i.d aha-- oh, & by the way. that's not mum turricka in the black. she's the beaut in the pink! aha looking pretty damn good for having a kid in '89. ha. anyways..
damn, i don't have anything to really talk about. give me some time to still warm up with whole blogging scene & i'll be more entertaining :) promise!
ciaaoo <3
