soo, i was just on @Keeish_'s blog, & watched Rihanna's new video for "Rude Boy". she's a piece man. REALLY. i wana fucking know HOW did she get so fucking THICK! she was not like that in SOS! lol i needa figure it out, either she doin some major hard exercises or she is getting piped RIGHT. i need\want bigger thighs so bad, lol #damnitman. anyways, i also saw that she's having a baby boyyy. (@Keeish_, not Rihanna) had no idea. & for not even knowing the girl like THAT, i was pretty excited. lol i guess reading her blog and shit, makes me feel like i met her before. lol anyways, she's gona be a good mamabear i can feel it. so i decided i'm not gona be salty for shit that's been going on this week. i'm blown, but i don't think it's right to take it out on folks that has nothin to do with it, so fuck it. i'm moving on :) this morning i rode into work with mamaTurr. lol (well, i have everyday this week) & she came outa nowhere and said somethin about Pops (grampa) and how he's really depressed due to his medical situations and she feels like he's at the point where he won't be able to bounce back like he has in the past after somethin goes down with his health. #killsme. she said eventually Mema (grama) will be like that too. she's goin down there tonight for the long weekend to visit. her, my aunt & her man, & my other aunt & uncle. my dad decided to stay cause he has a show tmw night. (did i tell you he's in a blues band? :) harp\harmonica playaaa. #iloveit & their name is BackYardBluesBand ha.) so anyway, idk. just the talk about death in general scares the living shit outa me. & especially with my gramparents cause they're out in NC alone. none of my mom's side lives out there. we've tried so many times to get them to move to Florida where there's sun and sand all over. relaxation, ya knw? nope, they wana stay in Jacksonville, NC. that's what they've grown to & are use to. & what i'm contemplating is whether or not i should make a trip down there after my driving improvement class tomorrow. (that's what's stopping me.) i go in at 8am & get out at 4pm #shootmeNOW. with a 12 gauge lol idk, i'll decide tomorrow i guess. another thing that really fucking bursts my bubble is that i don't end schooling til july\august. & our family beach trip is in july.. i'm most likely not able to go. FML. & that's the one time outa the year that the family is gauranteed to spend time together for a full week. once again, #itkillsme. ugh, "IT'S FREAKING DRAINING MY SOUL!" lol -words of Buttahcup aka MoeDollas & the Tool Academy lol. that was our show. we'd watch it together and text or call eachother about it everytime it was on. i miss him.
anyways.. mhm, what else? oh, i finally got some hair mousse for my hair. lol i'm glad the solution doesn't stink up the whole house like my past ones have. i feel like i look like an old woman with my hair like this but i like it. it's different from what i've been doing (the 16in. extensions). today i have it like, all to the side kinda and clipped on my left side. i wish i had one of those feather bobbypins like back in the 20's or whatev. it would look cute. but it looks fine for now. i really hope i get my paycheck. these snowdays FUCK'D UP my pay period. i really don't have any money in my accnt and i need $60 for my driving class tmw. (you can imagine how broke i am now knowing that i need 60 bucks. lol) so sad. i work fulltime and STILL is broke as a joke. lol auwell "#datslifepapiiii" lol well, speaking of-- let me get back to the gualas & make this worth what i'm getting -.-
